Here’s the AWESOME story of why I started Mommy Life Hack. 🙂

Biggest Mistake of My Life

I knew I made the worst decision of my life…

As I stared out my hospital window I couldn’t control the tears pouring down my face…

I remember feeling this guilt that I couldn’t shake off… I felt like my whole life was gonna end…

In that moment the nurse walked in. Our eyes met… and I so desperately needed her, anyone, to tell me that everything was gonna be ok…

“Is everything okay in here?” she asked.

I wanted to scream at her…

(“NO!! Don’t you see i’m bawling my eyes out! PLEASE… Ask me if I’M ok. Please ask about ME…Please stay… Don’t go… Please tell me that everything’s going to be fine…” )

 … but instead I reluctantly replied, “yes… everything’s ok…” She left without another word.

My first was born during a very difficult financial time for us. I’d come to find out that I suffered from postpartum depression… (We’ll talk about that later… it’s very important to me that everyone knows that they aren’t alone.)

The sleepless nights only made it worse. I mean, they all warn us right? that you’re never gonna sleep again…

But I still wasn’t physically prepared for how painful it’d be… I’d formula feed him then pump for 30 minutes to gather some breast milk…

** After the scabbing and excruciating burning pain all over my breasts, I gave up on breastfeeding only after a few days. **

I’d only sleep 2-3 hours before waking up again from a crying baby.

During the day I’d close all the curtains and make sure the room was dead silent… I needed to make sure he slept, because I desperately needed sleep. I was exhausted, overwhelmed, stressed, and completely burned out.

The exhaustion made me super impatient… and I scared myself at how irritated I can get at my own baby. It was in those moments that I knew exactly how moms could hurt their own baby…

Do you know what that feels like and how that makes you feel as a mother? 

I didn’t know how much longer I could go on without sleep…

So I decided to do something about it…

It wasn’t a magic pill by any means, but it was a miracle for me…

I Failed As a Mom

I desperately needed to get solid sleep so I could feel like a normal mom instead of this walking zombie that couldn’t think…

I forgot everything…. Damn…  The smallest everyday tasks became these monumental things that seemed impossible. I didn’t have the energy or patience to deal with a baby. When I started to understand how moms could hurt their own child, I knew I had to do something.

I couldn’t go on exhausted or I didn’t know what would happen… Isn’t that a scary thought to have?

It seemed like everyone had a handle on this new parent gig except for me.

Everyone seemed to be enjoying and loving their motherhood except for me…

I felt like a total failure as a mom… and that I didn’t even deserve to be a mom to this beautiful baby…

 So, first I went to Google to get some answers.

I use Uncle Google for everything… down to curing my own postpartum depression… (seriously, but that’s for a later post… if you think you have PPD and wanna know how I did it on my own just reply to this email and ask me… I’ll tell you)

I typed… “how to put my baby to sleep fast”

It gave me answers alright… all few thousand of them. 

After going through the first few sites I gave up… They all had different strategies and opinions… and just reading it was giving me massive anxiety! It’s then that I realized that Google isn’t necessarily “New Mom” friendly.

We’re exhausted…

We have screaming kids…

And we usually head to Google when we’re faced with the problem in that moment.

Not the best time to be doing research, know what I mean?

Then one day I had a big epiphany… if you want to get the best parenting info as a new mom you don’t turn to google…

There’s a MUCH better place, where ALL the parenting experts are…

Where is it? Keep reading…

Go the F*ck To Sleep

As a new mom desperately wanting to sleep, Uncle Google failed me with a big slap in the face. A few thousand conflicting entries for a new mom isn’t my idea of “help”…

Please… ain’t no mama got time for that!

So I went to my next best thing… Amazing Amazon… Ahhh… that store where I buy books upon books that I sometimes don’t read (hate to admit it… but it’s true)

They have the best collection on every parenting topic imaginable… including one titled “Go the F*ck to Sleep”… <= (real book)

My kinda’ author, lol.

I bought the BEST book on baby sleep that I could find and waited… When it arrived I tore that thing open like it had the last bottle of water while stumbling through the Saharan Desert…

And I almost crapped in my own pants… 

Who ever thought it was an AMAZING idea to write a 500+ page book on baby sleep?? Apparently most parenting authors… <==(senseless)

But when you’re desperate you do crazy stuff… so I read that Mega Book, cover to cover…

Was it the magic pill I was looking for…? Not really, it was even BETTER!

Secret to a Bad Ass Mommy

No person with any damn sense should write a 500+ page parenting book… Ever… What does that say about all those parenting authors? We can all think it, I won’t be the one to say it first… 😉

When I finished reading that 500 page manual, I mean book, it wasn’t a magic pill…

He didn’t sleep through the night and I still woke up every few hours… But it did something else for me, I gained this unbelievable confidence through learning… I learned to look for his sleepy signs so that he could fall asleep faster without struggling…

I knew how often he had to sleep so he could sleep longer…

I knew the correlation with sleep times and how my baby slept…

What I learned about my baby sleep literally took me from being overwhelmed and tired to feeling like I was the baddest mom in the world… That’s when I realized that the secret to becoming a bad ass, confident parent was learning parenting skills from the experts…

The only problem was that they were all HUNDREDS of pages long… Me being a slow reader + new mom, it took me months to finish reading 1 book. And when I searched for summaries or cliff’s note style books, there was none.

And so… Mommy Life Hack was born…

“To Create the Netflix of Parenting Education…”

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